Right On Time!


Been a pretty low-key week. Had a good Christmas, nothing too stressful. Saw Ocean's 12, it was pretty cool. My time home has usually consisted of a span of 3-4 days where I do nothing, followed by 3-4 very eventful days. It's kind of nice.

Few days ago, hung out with Josh and his friend, Steve. We pretty much just jammed on his drumset and guitar while playing Halo 2 in between.

Couple nights ago, saw the show at Medieval Times with Heather and some of her friends, which was good. I pretty much know the entire story by now, and all the good food was making me sleepy. I paid more attention to the background music they had for all the different scenes, which wasn't that bad.

Last night was fun: had Sam, James (and his friend Louie who got drunk off his ass), John, and Sarah over for cards at my place. Sam lost a good deal of money after the first game. Myself, him, and James started a cash game on the side where he proceeded to lose another $10 as I helped out Sarah out-manuever a progressively drunken Louie until she overcame a chip deficit and won the first game, a nice $25 profit. She then proceeded to head home, and another cash game with the rest of us followed.

I was actually going to see Q and Not U w/ Sarah tonight, but unfortunatley she was not feeling well at all, and couldn't go. Ellen would be in DC, but most likely hanging out with her friend Paul, and I hate going to shows alone (though Q and Not U is tempting), so I stayed in. Bleh.

Tomorrow is golfing with paw in the early afternoon, and then I have a choice of either going to First Night or heading to a hotel party with Kevin E. Either way, I plan on getting my hands on some vodka.

My Christmas gifts rocked, too. They consisted of:

*Frisbee
*8 blank tapes
*3 Tom Waits CDs, 1 Sick of It All CD, 1 Hepcat CD
*2 Shirts
*2 Books of poetry

A nice haul, if I do say so myself. I'm going to go utilize two of those right now. ¶ 10:25 PM |

3.5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gpa gpa gpa gpa ROCK. And it's official,I can no longer sleep properly. Seriously. Look at me, I'm awake at 4 AM for God's sake after trying to fall asleep around 12.

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End of year survey that fellow bloggers and even emo LJers are doing. A non-survey type will follow whenever, as will my best music of 2004. (best meaning kev's favorite)


What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? -- Entered a casino, and drank liqour.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? -- If I made any, I don't remember them.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? -- TWO people.

4. Did anyone close to you die? -- Not this year, they all went in 2000-2002.

5. What countries did you visit? -- Canada, eh.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? -- Spontaneity.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? -- August 27th, when I left my old life behind. It took me a while to realize that.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? -- Getting accepted into almost every college I applied to. Fuck you, UMBC.

9. What was your biggest failure? -- One I'd rather not speak of, as this is not a private blog.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? -- A lot more colds than I've gotten in previous year. Missed a possible big injury in November by seconds.

11. What was the best thing you bought? -- A laptop computer.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? -- My parents.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? -- I wouldn't say appalled, because I kind of already knew in the back of my head.

14. Where did most of your money go? -- Poker and food.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? -- Going home for Thanksgiving, and my big going-away poker game/par-tay with friends that I won, hah.

16. What songs will always remind you of 2004? -- Morrissey - First of the Gang to Die

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder? -- Sadder is a horrible excuse for an adjective, so we'll say I'm more dejected.

ii. thinner or fatter? -- I don't think I can GET any thinner, but pumping those guns haven't done me much good.
iii. richer or poorer? -- POORER. Started off with over $2000, ending with about $1000. WTF? Oh yeah. . .

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? -- Read my Bible.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? -- Disregard friends, spend time alone.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? -- With the family, saw Ocean's 12.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004? -- Out of love is more accurate.

23. How many one night stands? -- 0

24. What were your favourite TV programs? -- The only one I watched; Family Guy

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? -- Nah.

26. What was the best book you read? -- Clive Staples Lewis' Mere Christianity.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? -- So many. I'd have to say either MF Doom or Alexisonfire. Probably Alexisonfire.

28. What did you want and get? -- A second chance.

29. What did you want and not get? -- Honesty, from multiple persons.

30. What was your favourite film of this year? -- Either Ocean's 12 or Saw.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? -- I don't even remember. Went out to dinner with mom and dad, I think.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? -- Not having to lapse into mild states of depression every now and then in college.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? -- Fucking good, that's what I say. Leather jackets, nice jeans, and a pair of $150 boots (that's where the money went!) to keep me styling all the way into college.

34. What kept you sane? -- Heather and working at the library. Familiarity and routine you can ENJOY provide comfort.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? -- OUT of the spotlight? Billy Graham. IN the spotlight? Howard Dean! It's a shame he was labled an ultra-liberal.

36. What political issue stirred you the most? -- The duration of the election year made me want to cry, so I'd probably say the Iraq war in general. Way to go, Bush.

37. Who did you miss? -- Missed Sarah over the summer, as she was in Delaware for the duration.

38. Who was the best new person you met? -- On the male side, probably either James or Lucas. Two very bright individuals who are awesome to hang around. On the female side, definitely Niko. I've met a lot of good-hearted/strange/fun people, but Niko is easily one of the best friends I now have in Buffalo.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004. -- Everything goes to hell if you give it enough time and not enough attention.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. -- There is none.
¶ 3:33 AM |

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
---Isaiah 43:18


I'll have a depressing year-in-review before the 31st. For me, today is a day for prayer and a time to focus on the future. And to see Ocean's 12 with Pops later today :)



And she will bring forth a Son, and you shall call his name Jesus,
for He will save His people from their sins.
---Matthew 1:21



merry christmas, friends :)
¶ 1:23 PM |

haven't talked to cousin dan in a WHILE, so i sent him an IM. we had a discussion on alcohol, cards, music, and-- alcohol.


wack y kev8 (2:34:40 AM): i love the gangsta rap coloring book
v00d0086 (2:34:45 AM): haha
v00d0086 (2:34:53 AM): I was like hmm
v00d0086 (2:35:23 AM): and then I remembered how you used to draw the wutang bird on shit back when we were in like the fifth grade
v00d0086 (2:35:33 AM): and I was like this has got to be it
wack y kev8 (2:35:39 AM): lol i cant believe you remember that
wack y kev8 (2:35:45 AM): i couldnt draw that symbol worth shit either
v00d0086 (2:35:50 AM): haha
wack y kev8 (2:35:53 AM): and wu tang isnt that great when i listened back
v00d0086 (2:36:08 AM): I dunno I'm sorta into them now
wack y kev8 (2:36:12 AM): bone thugz and harmony aren't thugging after i colored them pink and green!
v00d0086 (2:36:27 AM): thugging? more like hugging!
wack y kev8 (2:36:59 AM): bone, hugz, n harmony now appearing live at ottobar, featuring ghostface hugger and the huggin' squad. ¶ 2:41 AM |

Leaving on a Jet Plane...




My flight's not for a while, but me and Lucas are gittin the FUCK out of Buffalo State around 5:30. I lost $10 to him in dice today, after getting paid 20 bucks or so for standing in line for 2 hours to return his books.

It's all good. I can't wait to see everyone from back home, and while I'll miss such as things as poker, pool, "movie night," WBNY, music, economics, etc, they'll all be here when I get back.


I will NOT miss the food, nor will I miss the Buffalo State website, or admissions office.

The magnetic poetry on my mini-fridge reads:

I urge you to eat meat, not sausage

Spray those iron pants

Pink butts blow in the sky

Lick those lazy eggs


Yes indeed, you're an odd one, Mr. Grinch.

Said goodbye to a few folks who won't be coming back. They shall NOT be missed, for the most apart. This is the last post I will have involving BUFFALO STATE. NO MORE BUFFALO, NOT UNTIL JANUARY 23rd.

HEADIN BACK TO MARYLANDMerr-lind. ¶ 4:33 PM |

WE DON'T FEAR WE DON'T FEAR

WE DON'T FEAR

WE DON'T FEAR THESE MACHINES

Words cannot describe how ready I am for this semester to be OVER, for these exams to be over, and for me to get out of here for a while.


Don't know how ready I am to face home for a month. I will not be having a job while I'm back there barring a miracle, and I'm not exactly going to have huge amounts of cash to spend on poker games and buying film to take pictures with.

On the plus side, with the exception of small and creative christmas gifts, it's not like I'm going to have to spend money on anyone. I'm planning on becoming employed once I return to campus.

A campus job would be nice, but the odds of that are slim to nil. MOre than likely I'll settle for something on Elmwood. Coffee shop, record store, A FOOD PLACE, whatever. I plan on being more busy than I was this semester, that's for sure.

Ellen gets on my case about me complaining about people "liking" me here, and to an extent, she's right. So far, I've totaled six people having some sort of a crush on me over the semester. Lets look at the result:

*One has become overly-righteous, though she means well
*One I'm too good friends with to risk anything (that's my view)
*One strongly dislikes me (hate is too strong a word)
*One no longer likes me the same way, and is slightly hostile to Christianity
*One doesn't answer my calls anymore
*One kind of dropped off the face of the earth?

Combine it that some of these folks all live in the same building, and you get an interesting combination, one not to be messed with. My feelings are mixed between all six, and I don't harbor any ill feelings towards any of them, but it doesn't leave me with much of a choice.

I'm still very outgoing for the most part, but I have a difficult time simply walking up to some girl and striking a conversation, especially if I'm interested in her. I'm hoping to at least start dating again next semester, and get rid of the bad feelings from my last relationship so I can move on 100%, and just keep the good memories.


Moving on, the only thing I'm worried about when going home next Thursday is lapsing into some sort of minor depression over the holidays, and running out of things to occupy myself with. That probably won't happen, especially since I'll get to see people like Sarah, Brent, Will, Vince, and Kevin.

And the senile, vengeful kitty cat.

I hate exams. Pray for Kevin. And not just for good mental stability on exam day, just in general. I find myself being over-analyze-ish and paranoid when I'm alone in this damn room.

It's like the platypus is watching me or something. ¶ 2:26 AM |

hello, it's me


Everyone around me seems to be helpless right now. Everyone I care about (including myself) seems to have a plethora of problems, some worse than others. These last couple weeks are killing me.

The worst part about being here isn't the repetitiveness of the days, it's the lack of trust I have with everyone here. There's probably one person here that I actually trust. I'm tired of the joking around with the other guys. I have a pretty thick skin, but it gets old sometimes.

The one class I thought I had wrapped up, English, has come crashing down the last couple days. The in-class essay I did today, well, I was unsatisfied. I have a chance to re-do it Wednesday, but I really don't feel like it. My portfolio is also due Wednesday. The one essay I need to turn in for it -- well, my professor completely destroyed one of my main arguments. I don't even know how to revise this fucking thing.

I need to have previous copies of other essays (which I can't find), and the portfolio is a damn good part of my grade. I was convinced I was getting the 4.0 in the class, now I'll probably end up with an A-minus, which is a 3.33. And when I might fail Human Biology, that matters.

Econ and Pol. Science are going okay. Should get A's and B's in those classes, respectively.

Oh yeah, I broke part of the wire on my retainer, and I can't seem to get a job for when I go back home. I have $0 left on my meal card.



The only good part about this stupid week is the big $10 poker game we're doing Thursday night (Friday we have off, it's a "study day"). Should have about 16 people, with 3rd getting money back, 2nd a little more, and 1st taking a hefty prize.

I'm ready for this semester to end. ¶ 2:35 AM |