Just say the word and you shall be healed. . .

We Shall All Be Healed

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Usually I drink to simply get away from my problems/annoyances in everyday life, but sometimes things don't work out, and all the alcohol does is bring back every single one of your problems you could possibly imagine in a head-on assault.

And the worst part is, you can't get up and do anything about it. You can't go home or call someone to vent. You can't because you're fucking incapacitated, alone, and piss drunk on somebody's couch, and 100% aware of it. That's a horrible feeling.

I'm not supposed to feel excluded, depressed, or helpless when I drink. That's the entire opposite effects than what I want.

But sometimes that's all I'll get.

Serves me right, I suppose. I'm sure I'll figure out why after it's too late.

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At the moment, I'm searching for flights back to Buffalo. A good thing to be doing in my current mindset.

My car doesn't appear to be ready tonight, so my mother called me and told me I could use her vehicle for pizza delivery. One step closer to recouping my $400+ losses.

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Some good news: The Mountain Goats alongside the Prayers and Tears of Arthur Digby Sellers are coming to Buffalo (at the Icon) in October. Finally.

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I'm Kevin. I attend Buffalo State College in The Empire State. I'm your normal teenager who's secure enough in his masculinity to do things some people may find a little odd. My turn-ons include long walks on the beach, poetry, and percussion.

I enjoy the music stylings of (but NEVER limited to) Morrissey, Coheed and Cambria, The Marleys (bob to ziggy), The Heptones, The Toasters, Pietasters, Queen, Luciano, Junior Murvin, NOFX, Mountain Goats, Rufus Wainwright, Death by Stereo, The Court & Spark, Sentridoh, Killswitch Engage, Dog Fashion Disco, M83, Passion Worship Band, Aesop Rock, El-P, Five Iron Frenzy, The Darkness, CSNY, Virginia Coalition, Alexisonfire, Hopesfall, Buju Banton, Bounty Killer, MF Doom, RJD2, Kool Keith, Aesop Rock, DJ Shadow, King Geedorah, Why?, Bright Eyes, Wilco, Sufjan Stevens, Tom Waits, Talib Kweli, Neva Dinova, Beastie Boys, and even Jay-Z.

I enjoy reading The Bible, Dan Brown, CS Lewis, John Steinbeck (favorite author), Dean Koontz, Stephen King, and Eugene Peterson.

I'm an avid poet (not so much anymore) and reader of poetry. My favorite poets are Stanley Kunitz, Alan Ginsberg, Tuli Kupferberg, Bret Hubinger (AACC Professor!), Walt Whitman, and Edward Thomas.

July
7/4 - Begin working @ domino's
7/15 - Charlie+Choco Factory
7/15 - Dan comes to play golf?
7/16 - Q and Not U @ Fort Reno
7/21 - Bone Grafting pre-op
7/29 - TEETH BONE GRAFTING (one step
closer to getting rid of retainer)
8/5 - Tanya's wedding in Troy
8/7 - Dad's birthday
8/21 - Sufjan Stevens @ Bowery Ballrom in NYC