I continue my useless, yet productive education here at Buff State in the Fall of 2005. Here's my schedule:



Monday:

Logic 11:00 - 11:50
Dance Appreciation 3:00 - 4:15

Tuesday:

Intro Human Communications 1:40 - 2:50
Social Work 220 3:05 - 4:20

Wednesday:

Logic 11:00 - 11:50
Dance Appreciation 3:00 - 4:15
American Life II 6:00 - 8:40

Thursday:

Intro Human Communications 1:40 - 2:50
Social Work 220 3:05 - 4:20

Friday:

Logic 11:00 - 11:50

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Shit don't touch me, shit. I'm going to listen to Tears for Fears and Oingo Boingo then go to bed. Shit. ¶ 12:15 AM |

Muse was amazing, and though I didn't get near the stage or get to crowd surf, they had one of the best stage presences I've seen, great strobe lights, perfect playing, etc. Well worth $10.

Could Kevin make it to Erie, PA to see two of the HARDEST bands currently out there? Specifically Terror. Seriously, that would be one amazing weekend of music. Right after a nap, at least. Ultimate Frisbee makes you tired. ¶ 2:56 PM |

I wish I could explain it. When every word you have in a conversation means something, when someone understands you completely, and vice versa. When someone loves your odd sense of humor, and your snazzy hair. A person who thinks you're so amazing that they're afraid -- afriad that you're not genuine.

A person I can put my arm around while sitting on a bus, discussing poetry. A person I can be completely silent around while eating dinner, and feel 100% comfortable. Hell, a person who appreciates silence. A person who doesn't even attend this fucking college. She works 40 hours a week for a collections agency. She's 18.

I can be my laid-back self. I can say what I feel. Whatever I fucking feel, whatever the fuck is on my mind that very second, I'll say it, and she'll understand it.

A person that in 3 weeks or so I'll be gone from for 3 and a half months. I can take my time with this. I can take my damn time, and pick things up right where I left off. Or maybe not. Who knows? Better yet, who cares? This is not your normal relationship. I don't know what it is, but it's giving me a spark I needed. ¶ 12:26 AM |

You know you need a haircut when:

-Massive amounts of hair gel doesn't do the trick
-People assume you play guitar
-You hear the word "mullet" more than thrice a day
-Girls hit on you
-You take more hair out of your own brush than most girls do

I've had a recent renewal for an appreciation of my own poetry, and other poetry -- an amazing feeling to know that the time spent with me can be the best part of someone's day. To have someone understand and respect me that much. Yet at the same time, it's eerily frightening. A situation I have not experienced for a while, and feelings I'm not used to.

Right during "crunch time" of college, too. Can't say I'm surprised at the timing of it all.

No money for poker. No time to go off campus. No inspiration, both for writing and for breathing, now that I wake up next to blossoming trees and get to sneeze every morning.

No words to describe how it feels to drift away from someone (slowly). ¶ 11:53 PM |

According to findyourspot.com, the number one place for me to live is in Knoxville, Tennessee. Number two is Johnson-City Kingsport, Tennessee -- number three is Clarksville, Tennessee.

Christ, I've only been to Tennesee once, and it was somewhere near the river.

edit 4/12 3:09 PM

I hate those !@#$ing online quizzes, but I broke down and took this one:

Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male

You have a total boy brain Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts And while your emotions do sway you sometimes... You never like to get feelings too involved

¶ 3:41 PM |

I'm not really sure right now. ¶ 10:46 PM |

Today was amazing. The fact that B-lo had its first spring day --- well, all year, must have had something to do with it. I spent the majority of my day outside: frisbee, chess, reading (not the greatest reading, but i was OUTSIDE).

And indoors I got to watch LXG, the best comic-book and one of the best comic-book movies.

Everything that went right have been material, and not important in the long run -- but it was the first day I've really enjoyed in a while. Sometimes that's all you need. ¶ 12:22 AM |

A lot of people have died recently. Quite sad.

Mitch Hedberg died, a funny comedian. "Rice is great when you're really hungry and want 2000 of something."

Johnnie Cochran died. I never had much admiration for the man so to speak, but he was a brilliant lawyer, and I respected him.

Terri Schiavo died -- I'm just thankful she was finally able to go peacefully. What was none of the public's business in the first place turned into a media charade with a disgusting interference from congress, and majority leader tom delay. My only opinion on the matter was that keeping the woman alive via a feeding tube wasn't right -- she was not aware who the people around her were, and we, by keeping her alive, are playing God.

And unfortunatley, Pope John Paul II died after a period in his life that lasted too long -- where pain, discomfort, and Parkinson's disease made living difficult. He was a great man of God, and I'm sure he's at peace now.

He was the first Pope to cross the river and attend the main Synogague of Rome -- preaching brotherhood between Christians and Jews, and recognizing the hardships Jews have faced over time living in so-called Christian countries.

He helped end the last stands of Communism, and heavily influenced the Polish solidarity movement, another blow to communism. He was committed to giving others faith and hope -- committed to a campaign for human rights. Catholic or not, he was one of the finest leaders the Church has seen.

I'm curious as to the next Pope's choosing for a name -- I'd personally like to see a return to Victor, the last name of one of the three African Popes in the church's history. That is, if Arinze from Nigeria is chosen. It's probably going to be some Italian (not that there's anything wrong with that).


I've been praying lately for a lot of things -- for direction mostly. A rather subtle change from my lack of prayer and Christian state of mind over the last month or so. Although others will disagree, I personally believe I'm at a point where I need to start figuring things out for myself -- what I want in life, and what I need to do to get there. Becoming employed this summer is a good step, and it's one I'll hopefully meet with all the applications I've filled out for places (GameStop, Nighthawk, Walden Golf Club, CVS).

"Let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us." - Hebrews 12:1

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Back at college now, too. The flight was bumpy and I sat next to someone smelly. I lugged my luggage around, got back and had lunch, took a 3 hour nap, had a light dinner with friends, and played in a $10 game where I played awesome, but mis-read someone at the final table, got knocked out, and took 5th out of 15 players or so.

Illinois lost the tournament, so Dan wins the "office pool" we did. Good for him. Still an incredible season.

Classes start again tomorrow. I REALLY don't want to get up for any of them.

:/ ¶ 11:51 PM |